It’s been forever. I’m loathe to imagine how long! Who knows if any of my old pals remember me!
I’ll start with an update/backhistory. I’ve decided to return to blogging to reconnect with friends and also help keep tract of the effectiveness of my own progress and any positives/negatives of my med regimine.
October of 2007 I joined a livejournal writers group and began reviewing the work of various authors.
April 2008 I moved home with mom and gram.
May 2008 Burtle and I broke up and then my father passed away the day before Memorial Day.
July 2008 was phenominal. Sumo (now 3years old!) became a big brother to Butterfly.
August 2008 I went through another break up but thankfully I had my dear friend Bunny who helped pick up the pieces. Predictably we fell into a relationship of sorts. The one snafu? She’s from the middle of Canada!
September 2008 I returned to the theatre troupe of my youth and was pleasantly surprised to find we had moved into one of the oldest theatres in the country!
October 2008 Bunny and I decided to become exclusive even though we were 2000 miles apart.
November 2008 I had the extreme pleasure to perform in an outstanding production of Annie. Our final dress was the night President Obama was elected. I sobbed through our curtain call rendition of “Tomorrow”.
December 2008 I began rehearsals for a children’s production of Aladdin.
February 2009 my kids (theatre kids of course! still none of my own) put on an outstanding performance and also for some reason seem to think I walk on water. Any kid that is deemed “difficult” I make my special project. 99% all they need is someone to listen AND to respect them. One little boy (about 9 years old) who was deemed as a trouble maker is actually an amazing child. At that age her already plays the violin AND writes poetry. I wanted to smack the adults that treated him like a bad kid. No more of that though. Not on my watch.
I was also FINALLY diagnosed with ADHD and began taking methylphenidate. It began helping but we’ll get back to that.
March-May 2009 Was… INTENSE. The theatre’s spring show had never been set so I offered to direct Our Town. I mean c’mon! No set, no props, how hard could that be? That thing almost gave me an existential crises! But? It was said to be one of the best productions EVER with our organization. Board members, trustees and resident hard asses all told me how proud our organization should be of the production.
June 2009 I spent several days in the hospital due to chest tightness. They asked me several times if it was a panic attack. I said no because I didn’t think I was feeling emotional about anything.
Bunny arrived from Canada for two months to be the maid-of-honor in her best friend’s wedding. Ironically said best friend was born and rasied an hour and a half from where I live. Talk about fate.
August 2009 I was finally diagnosed with panic attacks on prescribed Xanax. Sadly the attacks continued and because I don’t have insurance I was unable to see my PDoc (psychiatrist) on a regular basis. Also our organization is simply overloaded with consumers.
Also I began my stint as Production Manager for TITANIC THE MUSCIAL. Those who have been here before probably know I’ve been obsessed with that damn ship since I was about six years old. I’m now 32.
Lastly Bunny returned to Canada. It was very difficult for both of us but we were so blessed to have the amount of time we had!
October 2009 our TITANIC was the largest attended show in the history of our amateur company.
November 2009 Started feeling flu-ish but was in the process of directing a Reader’s Theatre production of The Odd Couple (female version) as well as rehearsing my role in The Best Christmas Pageant Ever. I stayed sick the entire month. None the less, The Odd Couple was our largest attended Reader’s Theatre since we reinstated the program.
December 2009 Still sick. Performed in The Best Christmas Pageant Ever with a fever nearly the entire time. A week after the show closed I got sicker and my joints swelled up. Trip to the ER for me and gram (who had pre-pneumonia.) By that time they were no longer test for H1N1 but the doctor said because of the length of my illness, the fact that it would start to feel better and then get worse and the swelling my joints. I was told to sit my ass down and sleep as much as possible.
January 2010 I spent two week out of town at a training session to become a Peer Support Specialist. It was beyond intense but so empowering. PSS is still a somewhat young movement in the Mental Health field. People with Mental Diagnoses who are actively stable go through very comprehensive training and then meet with peers who are beginning or not as far along in their ability to maintain a rewarding life.
February 2010 Bunny came to visit for 10 days during which we spent time in Niagara Falls and then New York.
March 2010 aka NOW A few days ago I held auditions chose my cast for our production of “FOOLS”.
Who’s still around? How are you? Who are you?