Photo Friday: BAD HAIR

My original descent into short hair was because I wanted Dana Delaney’s hair from "Chnia Beach". Unfortunately my hair is waaaaaaaay to thick and the JCP*nneys stylist didn’t know what the f*ck he was doing. In what UNIVERSE did Dana Delaney have poofy hair during "CB"? No no no no no. It was close cropped as heck, just like I eventually had done in my early twenties. (And it is the exact cut for me if I do say so myself!) I was crushed that it was so poofy. Oddly enough it looks rather like the hair cut my grandmother has had her entire life (See Pigpens Party pic).


The poofy hair of seveth grade terrorized me so I decided to grow my hair out. I remember wanting to have the cool immovable bangs that the other girls I knew had. Hell, even the girls in marching band seemed to have impenetrable locks that sprang back to life as soon as they took their dorky bucket marching band hats off. I desired that more than anything. Afterall they were the popular girls! Now, on the rare occasion that I do see them (a decade and a half later mind you) and they still have the same hair, I just laugh.


There is SO MUCH WRONG with this picture but for now we will focus on just the hair. Please note though that is a cast picture for "And Then They Came For Me: Remembering the World of Anne Frank". The woman I was portraying was blonde and throughout the show pictures of her with very obviously blonde hair would flash on the multimeda screen above the stage. Willing subject that I had become at this point, I offerred to have my hair (professionally and paid for by the theatre) bleached and cut for the show. Nearly four hours later it was a beautiful sandy blonde bob. I literally did double takes when I passed my own reflection.
Two weeks later was another story. The rust etc in my water leeched into my hair and it because a stunning ORANGE. The things I do for art.

Then go

here. Stacey and Angele are being induced. Here comes Riley right before the big storm!

If you are here

then I insist you click this link and send Bug’s Mom some good vibes. She has some new young’uns she’s looking after and she needs all the prayers etc she can get!

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The Random Weekend 7

The Random Weekend 7 (stolen from Fumbling on Track)
(please copy at will. note to ipod users: for #’s 2 and 3, list latest artist listened to on ipod)

1. Who I last talked to on the phone:
One of my employees
2. Current cd in my car stereo:
Just downloaded some Patti Lupone
3. Current cd in my home stereo:
and some Christina Aguilera. Loving that “Candyman” song.
4. Recent books read:
“Hannibal Rising”
5. Last meal I ate:
Cheeseburger and chips from RRR Roadhouse
6. Last place I drove to (other than home):
Currently don’t drive… its a looooooong story
7. Current Thought Taking Up the Most Space in My Head:
I wish my house was clean. I wish I had more than a few hours to clean my house. I wish I didn’t have to work open to close for the next five days. 😦 Oh yeah, and I wish my boss wasn’t coming to visit Sunday.

Grandma

Pigpens Party
Originally uploaded by dismantledarmadillo.

She’s been sick for over a month.

She’s on second hospital stay right now which started two weeks ago. She had been in for about a week. They sent her home. She was back in four days later.

She couldn’t stop vomiting. Then came the blood in the vomit. Then the ng tube to stop the vomiting and they discovered stool in her stomach. Finally surgery exposed a hernia that the top of her small intestines got looped through.

The surgeon said he had never seen a person so literally full of shit.

She finally could eat and pass food correctly but she was so nasty to everyone who came to visit. She didn’t understand why they were trying because she’s “just going to die anyway.”

Guess who hadn’t been on her Zoloft since the ng tube was put in.

Then a few days ago there was blood in her stool, as in over 300ccs in about four hours. Her stats were fine but she was definitely bleeding. They scoped her stomach but no bleeding ulcer like they suspected. Then the blood flow stopped for a day. Now it’s back.

She’s meaner than ever. She’s constantly tired. She doesn’t want to do anything. She wants to go home. She doesn’t understand that she has to be able to walk and make it to the bathroom to be able to go home.

She’s really pissed because her doctor had a psych consult done.

All I can do is shake my head. How did we get here?

I know that were crawling towards an inevitable end and it hurts that I can’t fix this.

If she doesn’t start trying at transition care that will be the end of her hospital stay. She will have to go into a nursing home.

I remember great grandma (grandma’s mother) asking that they please not ever put her in a nursing home. Eventually it was the only option. It made us all sick. The number of times things were stolen from her was deplorable. The way the patients were treated was just… sad. At some time I remember grandma and grandpa both saying they never wanted to be in a nursing home. But once again we’re faced with what is probably our only option.

My heart hurts.

The L Word: Luck Be A Lady

Angela Robinson is my GOD

Never should I EVER doubt this fact.

Not that I did BUT:

DAMN

The entire first quarter of the show was back and forth phone calls between the friends. Ah, the humor. It just got better from there. For the second week I was laughing and yelling, “I LOVE this show.” Sure it has it’s faults but nothing can be perfect. And faults were few and far between in my eyes.

Yes, Jenny is nuts. I am not contesting that. The scene in the Bed & Breakfast had my frozen. The gravity of what she put vagina-wig’s girlfriend though is unacceptable. I adore the girlfriend. For a split second when that glimpse of compassionate Jenny hit the screen I thought, “This can work. Jenny can change.” And I do believe that she did like the girlfriend but no she was to far down her crazy deceitful path. I could say so much more. I could get flamed on so much more.

Bette and Jodi. Jennifer Beals and Marlee Matlin. That’s really all there is to be said except:

Perfection. PURE PERFECTION.

Shane & the kid’s mom and Alice & Tasha = up and coming favorites

Helena = what a fabulous English muffin

Papi = yeah she is a hideous stereotype but she make me laugh my ass off.

That is all.

Photo Friday: Your Favorite Place

Of course I couldn’t pick just one favorite place. Niagara Falls has been a favorite of mine for as long as I can remember. We lived so close to there when I was young that we often went several times per year. I know the history, the street names and the best places to go.

I took this picture on a summer day near Corry PA on my way home from Erie. It was one of those cases where I was driving along and stopped my car just to photgraph this scene. It really epitomizes the type of area that I grew up in; Pennsylvania farm country.

This was taken in a cemetery near my childhood home. My mom, myself and one of our friends used to walk every morning from the bottom of our hill to the top of the cemetery and back. We’d often take the dogs and just let them run once we got on the cemetery grounds. It was so peaceful, nearly silent. There was something about know my ancestors were laid to rest there. I would wonder if they had ever imagine they’d have a great granddaughter/neice like me. I would wonder if they would have been proud of me. It was very sobering but somehow it made me feel closer to them, myself and also my mom. It was on those walks that we had our best talks.

Sofa Love

Sofa Love
Originally uploaded by dismantledarmadillo.

I planned for days to get my couch cleaned offso that I could post some Sofa Love of the kitties and I. Alas, as you can see the Cleaning did not happen so you get to view my slightly mortifying mess. Enjoy!

Houston, we have a problem.

My copy of “Kissing Jessica Stein” is missing.

Now, I’m sure tons of you gay gals are part of the “I hate the end of that movie” camp but now is not the time to debate. I’ll profess my love and reasons why for at a later date.

You see, I need to clean and I needed something fun playing on the Cinego (projection tv) whilst I I scrub, vacuum and rearrange my favorite room.

But I need “Kissing Jessica Stein” to doit!

I’ll admit I’m a bit odd. 🙂 It’s a case like this I see a glimpse of MrBP (Mr BiPolar). When I’m looking for something in particular, I get a bit obsessive. If I then have trouble finding said thing I get really cranky and begin tearing things apart in hopes of finding whatever it is I’m freaking out about.

Case in point, in my search for “KJS” I opened every dvd box I own including the box of Christmas ones that have been packed away for a month… of course, it was before Christmas that I last watched it, I believe. So now, Christmaas dvds and vhs tapes are out of their box. There are dvd cases scattered over the home entertainment center and the one small dvd rack I own is now empty because all of the movies are on the floor in front of it. To top it all off while emptying the rack every few dvds I would have to stop and go back because maybe there were actually two dvds in the case and somehow I missed it. OCD much? 8-D I also looked in my empty dvd carousel in my home theater AND I plugged in my two dvd/vcrs to see if it had ended up there.

I was seriously considering plugging in the XBOX to see if I had played it through there. The only thing that stopped me is the fact THAT I HAVEN’T USED MY XBOX SINCE I MOVED HERE IN JANURARY 2006.

I’m nuts.

Seriously though this one of my few hang ups. I’m so thankful that I’m not one of those folks that gets completely incapacitated, though I admit I will be bothered by it until I do find it. I don’t get manic, only the occasional hypomania. I don’t get very depressed as long as I remember to take my meds which I rarely forget to do. I’m very lucky to be so mildly affected.

All that aside, I still want my damn movie! I ran through my choices repeatedly.
“Loving Annabelle”
No, I want to give it my full attention the first time I watch it.
“Better Than Chocolate”
😦 I rerlaly want “KJS”
“But I’m a Cheerleader”
Not what I want right now and I’d probably end up flopping down and actually watching it.
“Treading Water”
“Show Me Love”
“Bar Girls”
“Desert Hearts”
No.
“The Truth About Jane”
Stockard Channing and Ellen Muth would incapacitate me.
“Gia”
Same as above but exacted by Ang*lina and Elizabeth Mitchell.

After running through the list several times, finally:

Sure you won’t take “Better Than Chocolate”?
Well… it does have Wendy Crewson! Love me some Wendy comdeic goddess that she is.

Unfortunately I’m a half hour in and haven’t accomplished anything other than blog about it all. I guess its time to put “Wicked” in and just haul ass. I want to get this cleaning crap done AND pick up the new messes I made.

Then of course I’ll continue my search 😀 Oh and look for my favorite Bluetooth headset which is also on the lam. Same events transpired when it was lost a few days ago after I fell asleep wearing it in bed. God only knows where it has gone.

Off to find some motivation by way of some sexy witches.